This is because I feel it fake when I dress up "for no reason"/without cause. Going out? Yes, look my best. Home? Frump. Now, I am doing it for a reason. I am doing it because Master has set a goal. This is to be ongoing until it feels natural to "be pretty".
It is hard to admit that with even the admiration that I get from Master and our swinger friends (male & female alike), I do not feel beautiful or pretty. I feel like a total trash bag.
Today was Day #1 of this week. I got dressed in my comfy jeans and favorite shirt (with a bra), cleaned up my make up box, and applied my make-up. I went pink and made it a little bold, but I think I like it, even though it does feel odd to be dressing up just because "Hey! It's Tuesday!"
I still have to brush my hair, even if I just put it back up. I'm sure daily maintenance wil lbe good for it and me rather than every other day (or less) like I sadly do some weeks.
So, Day 1? I'm still not impressed. I'll be back in a few weeks to revisit these feelings.
