A New Task for Self-Image

To battle my growing poor self image, I am now required to a minimum of 3 days a week to "dress up".

This is because I feel it fake when I dress up "for no reason"/without cause. Going out? Yes, look my best. Home? Frump. Now, I am doing it for a reason. I am doing it because Master has set a goal. This is to be ongoing until it feels natural to "be pretty".

It is hard to admit that with even the admiration that I get from Master and our swinger friends (male & female alike), I do not feel beautiful or pretty. I feel like a total trash bag.

Today was Day #1 of this week. I got dressed in my comfy jeans and favorite shirt (with a bra), cleaned up my make up box, and applied my make-up. I went pink and made it a little bold, but I think I like it, even though it does feel odd to be dressing up just because "Hey! It's Tuesday!"

I still have to brush my hair, even if I just put it back up. I'm sure daily maintenance wil lbe good for it and me rather than every other day (or less) like I sadly do some weeks.

So, Day 1? I'm still not impressed. I'll be back in a few weeks to revisit these feelings.

Goal # 1 set by Master

Be better prepered for anal sex by learning to wear my buttplug under my clothes within 72 hours of being told.

He's giving me 72 hours notice because the act has been bothering me, painfully bothering me.

My time is up Saturday night. I'm going to try to be ready Friday, not necessarily to get it over, but to succeed at his goal faster.