Fix it

I came across this picture and it reminded me of our last few weeks and all you have done to help me.

And I know that this is where we stand. I know that this "issue", whatever it may be, is giving me doubts in my own head. Please believe me when I say I have never doubted YOU... even if my mouth said otherwise in a tantrum.

I have never doubted Your love for me.

I have never doubted that above all You will be the one to "fix" me and help me get better.

I have only doubted myself and my ability to be the one You want me to be. I know that my fears are worse than my ability. I know that you are accepting of who I am even if you are annoyed as hell with my actions.

I know that if I am granted 65 years with you by my side it will not be long enough by far.

My wish is to serve you to the best of my ability, with your love as my guide, for as long as I am allowed.

I love You, Sir, and thank You for helping me on my road to emotional recovery.

This weekend being back in collar and in your service was amazing and it was all I could do a few times not to cry in joy. We both admitted this weekend that we've gotten away from it and need to reclaim it.

I fiddled around until I determined my password and got back into these old journals, including my sweet submissions and sweet's lessons.

As your loving slave, I respectfully request to be given goals again, and accept whatever rewards or punishments you will give in my completion or failure of them. I know where Mistress Abernathy's book is, but I believe in the years we have been M/s we have grown together and you probably no longer need her help.

I have added you as a author of this blog and I will check this blog as directed to see any goals you may have posted. Goals I will post here... lessons I will post in the lesson blog - unless you prefer I combine them for your ease.

All my love forever,

Your sweet