A post that I thought was going to be for future reference is now priority because polyamory in it's strictest sense (love for more than one) entered my life unexpectedly.
Now rather than my views on it I find myself posting my feelings on it. First let me state that I was ok walking into this blindly together. Finding out that this was a basic need is the hard part. Yeah, we're still blind, but now there is a purpose. My thoughts are like the proverbial angel & devil on my shoulder.
He loves that "new" relationship feeling of euphoria.
- Angel: Well, duh! It's fun!
- Devil: And since I can't give him anything new, so he's gotta go get it to feel complete.
He needs more to love than me.
- Angel: I can see this. Master is an insanely loving giving person.
- Devil: Why? Why can't loving me and my love for him be enough? I give him and our family unequivocally ALL of my love.
Is this something we can do?
- Angel: yes, we can do anything as long as we communicate.
- Devil: Fuck no! Maybe HE can, but this is a no fly zone for me. I can't fucking do this!
Is it a deal breaker (contract)?
- Angel: No, again, we can work through anything.
- Devil: The contract is all I have left so I can't call and end to it.
More later.. life calls...
